Hit the Wall!

Don't even have the energy to take a picture to post. I guess you can tell though, I haven't been on the loop or either of my blogs in over a week. Whew! Hit a wall. No energy and no enthusiasm. I am also officially on leave at work. I have an 8 hour job for a reason, and putting in three, four or five hours a day just wasn't keeping up. I asked for a sub and they have "ordered one".

I am now 2/3 of the way through my treatments. My last chemo started today. Same as last time. Wearing a battery pack that will administer the chemo drip 24/7 for 4 days. Everyone celebrate with me on Monday at 4:30 p.m. That's when they will take off the battery pack/chemo drip!!! Am a bit scared as to the side effects. My body is a bit more tired and weak this time around, but I had a wonderful blessing tonight administered by my angel husband and our bishop. That's probably why I am feeling good enough to write a few lines.

The chemo stays in your system about 6 or so weeks. That is why I am starting to lose my hair now, so long after the first treatment. Doctor said I shouldn't lose it all though, maybe about 30% more with this treatment. I guess we will just see how thin it can get before something needs to be done. (If it needs to be done at all.......) Sweet Jody spent about an hour with me learning to tie scarf knots and seeing it done on U Tube and watching it over and over again so I could feel encouraged about doing it. We learned a lot! (You gotta wear earrings was probably Number 1!)

Mouth sores was the worst - but there is a wonderful prescription called Magic Mouthwash (no, it really is called that) and it is a miracle worker. All I am asking of it is one more miracle!

My final radiation treatment is November 25th. Another day for everyone to celebrate at around 5:00 p.m. (My standing appointment is at 4:30)

And last but not least. I have been finding some time to read on and off and have been making some notes about things that have struck a chord with me. I won't put them all in this entry, but maybe eventually they will make it in other enteries.

Here are two of the first things I learned:

Worry: It is fruitless to worry about the things you cannot change. Also, don't worry about the things you can change. If they are important enough to worry about, then change it! (Stop wasting your energy by worrying spinning your wheels needlessly!)

When we pray, we often ask God to change the external aspects of our lives. This way, we don't have to change internally. (Bam! Think about that one!!!)